When I was around 13, my older sister had her first job at Taco Bell. I never had money. I wore sneakers from Payless, and clothes from Marshall's that were marked down, twice. My life was the clearance rack. When I was 13 years old I went into my older sister’s wallet. I saw at least ten twenty dollar bills and I stole one. Just one. My sister worked so hard assembling those burritos and giving extra onions to her nice customers, even becoming Taco Bell employee of the month, and I roll in like the little annoying punk I was and just took the twenty dollars from her wallet. I never forgot I did it. I never will. This act of stealing one twenty dollar bill haunted me. It wasn’t until I magically developed a consistent conscious, that I made it a point to pay her back ten times over, although she never knew that was what I was doing when I went a little over board on gifts, lunches, or dinners . Or when I slipped a large sum of money into her wallet when I was well into my 30’s...
Brina, yes, that was me. I’m sorry. This has eaten me alive for years!
The complete realization didn’t happen to me until around five years ago. My Epiphany. One of many. The coming to Jesus moment if you will. Every single bit of energy you put out comes back to you. Yes we have all heard this saying. But have you felt the depth of it? Many terms and names exist for this cycle. Karma for one. The French philosopher Voltaire said, “Words like luck, chance and coincidence were invented to express the known effects of the unknown causes. There is no such thing as chance. Everything happens to the Law of cause and effect. By focusing on the cause, the effect will automatically take care of itself.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson called this Law- The Law of Laws. It is powerful. You get back what you put out. It is like a boomerang. You throw it out and it comes back. Positive brings positive and negative bring negative.
It may not be immediate but rest assured or beware, it all comes back.
In reflecting on my own life, I came to conceive how my white lies and BS came back to me. I was a good person but I could be better. I was in effect, my own worst enemy-at my darkest, justifying selfishness and living in a world of constant anxiety that the sky would fall. What if, what if, what if. Remember the book the Secret? Well I could manifest my magical I want to take fairy like photos world and travel but I constantly worried it would explode, be taken away and I would be out on the street living under a bridge. Without going into great detail of my own journey and how, becoming somewhat enlightened helped me not only understand why unproductive selfishness and worrying needed to stop but it gave me the conviction to practice acting in accordance to as I like to call it, “A CLEAN SOUL”.
I think before I act.
I think before I speak.
I think before I react.
I calculate how everything I do, or say can affect people, or the life around me. I am careful.
I am by no means perfect. I still get curt on the phone if customer service is in a different country and I cannot understand a word the rep is saying and I hear an annoying echo,
I still waste food and I still love me some juicy gossip. I still say FUCK YOU under my breath weekly to morons.
But this undeniable law and being aware of it is almost comical now in its simplicity to deliver.
Like I said earlier, by focusing on the cause the effect will AUTOMATICALLY take care of itself. For example, someone does something really shitty to me-instead of taking revenge I chose to throw my hands up back away and go silent. It took over two years but the horrendous thing they did, it’s coming back to them. Hard. It was automatic. I had no part in the Karma. I am only a silent witness. I choose to not throw a stone anywhere, no ripple effect in my lake or ocean.
The person who lies like breathing. It’s coming back. My only interaction is the moral obligation I have when confronted by a stranger. A simple nod of my head. I do not add any more then my moral obligation asks me to. No revenge. No ego. No ripple effect in my lake or ocean.
The person who abuses power then experiences public embarrassment.
But it goes both ways. The person who gives his last $10 away to a homeless man at the gas station only to receive a check for $1400 he did not expect the very next day.
Whether you are in your 20’s, 30’s, 40’s or 50’s if you haven’t had the Epiphany yet, if you haven’t figured this out then the time is now. Read, meditate whatever it takes but if you are 40 years old and still an asshole you are kind of an antiquated Neanderthal. And no one wants to be an uninvolved barely bi pedal Piece Of Shit.