“This is your Captain. There are severe storms over Miami. We’ve been advised we cannot land at the Miami airport. They’ve asked us to stay in the air, circle around until further notice however we do not have enough fuel to do this. We are going to attempt to land somewhere else”
OH.SHIT! I am sitting between two people both equally freaking the F out. The British woman to the left opens up the window so we can see, oh yeah it’s a Storm, dark grey clouds and lighting bolts everywhere! Not just flashes but bolts, the kind that came out of Frankenstein’s head when he was being made. I’ve never seen lighting like this where there are multiple bolts across the sky. It’s amazing and terrifying & strangely beautiful. That old black & white twilight zone episode with the gremlin ripping off the planes wing comes to mind. I half expect to see him. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t look for him. The tall husky boy to the right of me looks terrified. “At least your parents and grandma are on board,” I say. Not sure if that is a good thing but in my mind he isn’t dying alone. He’s a bit to old to be a Momma’s boy, in his 20’s, but his parents must have come to his seat 20 times during the flight to give him snacks & oodles of love & way to much attention in my opinion. I half expected his Mom to hand him a Tropical Fruit Punch Capri Sun & a turkey & Cheese lunchables, I would have slapped him at that point and say grow a pair but now I sympathized with him. He is going to die; we are all going to die. I pull out my phone & he helps me purchase the GOGO flight Internet so I can say goodbye to my family. My hands are shaking as I hold my phone. I can’t function so he directs me on how to purchase. I JUST bought this stupid big iPhone I think, what a waste. I wonder if they will still deduct the payment every month if pieces of me are spread across the state that has the best key lime pie ever. I finally get online. I send a message to my Mom, “I am in a storm, it’s bad. I love you Dad Brina Alexis Ruby Vivienne & Scarlett.” I message the person who makes me the best spaghetti I’ve ever had & the only person that can get me to eat white starchy foods & ask him to ask his neighbor if she can take Aletheia my Daemon, my beautiful white snowy green eye cat. He’s really lucky because Mother Nature lives up the street from him and her human alias is “Marsha” & Marsha’s house is like stepping into Wonderland & her yard is like exploring the Secret Garden. She is everything that is lacking in this modern world. It was like meeting the Oracle in the Matrix. She fed me cookies and there was magic in every corner of her dwelling. I’m pretty certain she could bend a spoon with her mind had I asked.
Ok so now that my affairs are in order the plane dips, jerks and we are in the thick of it. I can scream I can pray or I can calmly reflect. I choose to reflect while my breathing is erratic and labored. I never liked roller coasters. Space Mountain is not my Jam. Mr. Toads Wild Ride is more my speed. I’m still shaking. I sit on my hands in a failed attempt to be still. I ask myself, am I ok dying today among strangers. I want to be calm but the plane is shaking so bad and I’m breathing so fast. Why is this happening? I didn’t see this coming not a single hint in the ether. Nothing. Am I ok dying today? Am I? Have I been living or have I simply existed? This is the question we should all ask ourselves. Are you waiting out each day miserable, accepting, settling, letting yourself go & slowly rotting while there is so much to experience. Or do you find this life we have been given to be something malleable, something you can shape or form to your liking. To create your own version of a fairy tale instead of waiting for one to land in your lap. As often as possible I LIVE - I WRITE my story and it’s dark and beautiful but I live. I live through nightmares; the underworld part of my namesake incarnate and I float through dreams while I am wide-awake. Dark & Bright & balanced I LIVE. I savor, I cry, I scream, I laugh, I dance, I taste, I see, I live. If you can bend a spoon with your mind you are starting to understand, if you can bend your existence you’ve got it right.